A SEARCH FOR THE COSMOLOGICAL CROSS — An essay on the religious writings of Simone Weil (excerpt)


She chose to submit to a kind of perpetual invisible crucifixion, her final relationship to all those she would not disown became that of the crucified on the cross.
—Leslie A. Fiedler[i]

Every time that I think of the crucifixion of Christ, I commit the sin of Envy.[ii]
—Simone Weil



Simone-Weil-round-glasses-not-smiling-400x500“THE GOD OF SIMONE WEIL will be found after gravity, when Spinoza’s falling stone[iii] stops and floats suspended in mid-air, to become no more than the last anti-gravitational atom left over of the body of the first Christ to escape the Eucharist (that is the Eucharist of a one-planet theology), when grace, as anonymous as evil, it returns theology to that level of weightlessness that, in refuting gravity, allowed the body of God to give birth to itself. Towards the end of her life, at the peak of her spiritual atrophy, it became an improbable luxury to regard Simone Weil as a ‘saint’ or ‘mystic’, when in truth, she was nothing but an indefinable effacement in the mind of a Kierkegaardian ‘Knight of Faith’[iv] no longer looked-for by theology. Unlike Catherine of Siena[v], the 14th century Italian mystic who advised to ‘build a cell inside your mind, from which you can never flee’, and who enjoyed a mystic marriage with Jesus Christ, Weil did not so much embrace Christ or, as in Bridal Theology, enter into a relationship with him, but rather she sought always to remain a decreated entity, one who, from each and every thought, emerged dripping wet with the black waters of God’s eternal abyss.” © Paul Stubbs, July 2015.

The full text of this essay is available in Paul Stubbs’ book The Return to Silence, and Other Poetical Essays (Black Herald Press, 2016).









[i] From Leslie A. Fiedler’s introduction to Waiting For God, Harperperennial, 2009, translated by Emma Crawford.

[ii] Gravity and Grace, Routledge classics, 2002, translated by Emma Crawford.

[iii] Benedict de Spinoza, Dutch philosopher (1632-1677) The concept of Spinoza is as follows: “that if a falling stone could reason, it would think ‘I want to fall at the rate of thirty feet per second per second’”.

[iv] Kierkegaard, Fear and Trembling, Penguin 1985, translated by Alastair Hannay.

[v] Catherine of Siena (1347-1380). 


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